Thank you for all the love and support you’ve sent since my last post. It has been a great comfort.
Jeanne always says to me ‘change is the only constant’, and this past week may have been my most profound lesson yet in that particular perception. I am keen to maintain the ratio of mainly-art-and-just-a-little-learning-and-wisdom-I-pick-up-along-the-way here, but let’s just say that where I previously had a lot of stories and old programmes around the ‘Disney’ perspective on love and the ‘loss’ of it, a veil has at least been partially lifted now.
Believing that my relationship with the man I love had been lost and irreparably broken was intensely painful, and not in fact true. Nothing is lost, only changed. I can sit in the pit of despair or I can embrace the new form our relationship is taking. A period to grieve is perhaps still necessary, but now a new present and future open up in front of me, where the connection we share is still very much alive, and I also now have the freedom to explore what comes next for me.
And that’s pretty exciting! There is a tiny glow starting to form at the end of the tunnel as far as selling my flat and buying and moving into the new one are concerned. It feels like it’s taking forever but I’m reliably informed that around three months is normal.
I am writing a book. I have decided to treat myself to the self study version of Jen Louden and Michele Lisenbury Christensen’s TeachNow course, in preparation for running art sessions from my new studio once I’ve moved. I have been spending the past few weeks brainstorming, making notes, researching and planning. I will talk more about this later but the fundamental premise is to offer a safe, supportive space for people wishing to explore or rediscover their creativity. The book dovetails with this and I will shortly be putting another page on this website for further information.
Today’s photo is a little sketch I did of one of my Buddha statues. I drew it without looking at the page, then played with watercolour pencils, pen and charcoal.
I’ve always been a believer that from the “ashes” come wisdom and learning and growth. Even when it’s painful growth, there is still something to be discovered. You are moving in a different direction, one that has a lot of potential…a new home, new environment, a place to stretch your wings and become more of the person you have always been. It sounds like you have some wonderful, interesting projects in the works…take the time with your grief because that’s a “must” but when you can see light ahead, you know that you’re going to be “okay”. xo
I agree; not all growth has to be painful but when it is we can still learn from it and take comfort that we can. Thank you for your support Sherry. 🙂 x
Haven’t been by in a while and thought I would pop in. Very excited for you about your teaching class and your preparation for your own teaching studio!! You are an amazing artist and seem like such a caring soul, I cannot imagine a more wonderful teacher! It seems you have so much going on right now too…lots coming in and lots going out…like the ocean tide. Wishing you clarity to take all of it in and to see the goodness in it all. Love your Buddha and the moon painting that I saw in a previous post too. Hold on dear girl, you’ll weather this storm and come out even more brilliant!
Wonderful to read these words from you Tara… i SO know you’re going to be ok. And that Buddha painting is fabulous!! Love that you drew it blindly – without looking at the page. Always makes for such an interesting painting… YOU GO GIRL! Your book is one i will definitely be reading. Take good care… xox