Ok, this is so weird I have to write it down.
It’s a beautiful day here; cold and breezy with blue skies and bright sunshine. I went to spend some time with My Precious, which you probably know as ‘the sea’, to get my negative ion quotient for the day and not spend the entire day indoors. {Goodness knows there’ll be plenty of time for that come winter.}
So there I am, standing at the edge of the surf, smiling away like a loon and feeling all this transcendental love rolling in at me, and three people come down to the shore line and stand RIGHT next to me. I don’t even mean a few metres away. There is NO ONE for miles on either side of me, the beach is all but empty, and yet these people decide that right inside my personal space is the place to be.
This has happened before, but never in quite such an intrusive way. They then walked in front of me, INCHES from me, and I truly wondered for a moment if I’d somehow become invisible. It was extraordinary. I was trying very hard not to be irritated by what really felt quite invasive, although I know they didn’t mean it or even realise I was having a personal space freak out. {That’s if they even saw me at all!}
So I walked along a bit and they stayed, occupying the space I’d been in as if I’d never been in it. I rebalanced quite quickly, but texted my teacher to see what it was all about. Apparently my light is shining so brightly now that I’m like a flame to moths. On an energetic level they sense the light frequency and propel themselves towards it unconsciously. I need to practise dimming my light and pushing out my aura. {Ironic, when you think that we are all working to uncover our light in one way or another.} The natural instinct is to pull it in closer to you but that just brings the moths closer! I suppose in a way it’s a compliment, but mostly I find it triggers extreme irritation in me. {Am working on that.}
By this point you are likely to be nodding in recognition or knowing for sure that I’ve gone over the edge and need to be carted off forthwith. Little occurrences like these happen to me more and more frequently these days. I must say though that that tiny moment when I wondered whether I was actually invisible, with the feeling that those people could perhaps even walk through me, was both frightening and kind of exciting. I have read that it is possible to make yourself invisible using quantum theory {or something ~ I’m big on the ideas, not so much on the science vocab}. Useful no doubt, if you can control it. 🙂
I don’t think you’ve gone “over the edge” at all. As I was reading, before I reached the part about you calling your teacher I could see it. Some people naturally attract others into their space. With all of the reiki work you have been doing, you have enhanced that “light” that shines from within you. Your calm, peaceful, stillness will be what drew those people to you without them even realizing it. What a gift you have Tara! And yes, truly frustrating when you are wanting your own “space” but there are times when we have more to give than we realize. Lovely story.
Lovely story, indeed…
Wonderful story Tara, and recognisable – sometimes I tried that too, and I have to admit I did get pretty annoyed, and probably have sounded a bit like a donkey with a cold. And on the beach with all that space, that is truly amazing! I am sure though that you are still very visible, probably just very bright too 🙂
The energy we emit is magnetic. We draw or repel. Someone or something is always sat on me, leaning on me, resting on me, or an inch too close for comfort… I thought I was invisible too- or just far too squishy that people thought I was a cushion, but I think it’s just a natural nesting instinct. People are drawn to safe, mother, comfort energies. Sometimes to a point where they are completely unaware of how close they actually are. I’ve fallen victim to it myself. I’d walk down the street and literally fall or bump into people with particularly strong or heavy energy. It’s a fascinating phenomenon. Last night I had both my daughter and my husband perched on my lap. I’m 8 months pregnant! There is NO room for them to fit! But they find a way.
My top tip is to shield yourself in pink light. White light shields can be a little too defensive and cut you off emotionally and socially but pink light allows you to keep a distance but remain emotionally open so people still feel like they can approach you.
I’m glad I’m not the only one who suffers from public cushion syndrome. I’m not even very touchy feely so I always find it odd when people start lounging on me ha ha ha
shine as bright as you can…..ignore the intrusions and revel in the revelation of the new you 🙂
What an incredible story! I believe in Quantum Physics/Theory and maybe you touched on it with your energies, moving your cells from one plane to another. Those people either did not see you at all or you were emitting so much light energy, you blended in and became one with the scene. They were definitely drawn to your energies.
Have a great week,
Serena
Your story is fascinating, and I’m just as fascinated by these comments! So intriguing.