Who are you by Tara Leaver

This is my painting ‘Who Are You’, which has the entirety of Marianne Williamson’s famous quote about our deepest fear being that we are ‘powerful beyond measure’ {often mis-attributed to Nelson Mandela} inscribed across it.

I’ve been doing a LOT of thinking lately, about all sorts of things connected with truth, and shining, and meaning. There’s plenty more thinking to do {always!} and I’ve noticed that I am continually coming across things that reflect my thoughts or take them further, so I know I’m on the right track.

I just read this on Susannah Conway‘s blog ~ she is talking about the book tour she just completed in the USA:

“We can learn so much from each other and if nothing else I hope that my book (and actually, this blog) encourages people to open up and share their story. To be real and honest about their life so others feel less alone. So WE feel less alone. There is so much collective wisdom out there, it really is a gift to be living in a time when we can share with each other as easily as we can. Blogsโ€ฆ booksโ€ฆ coursesโ€ฆ social media. I see tribes forming online and marvel at how much support and love there is out there.”

{my emphasis}

And I realised that she was saying what I hadn’t yet articulated to myself but felt very deeply; that more and more for me life is becoming about connection and sharing.

I feel a deep longing in me to make an offering to the world through connection, even if I don’t yet know exactly how, and even if I feel like a chick that just hatched and still has egg goo on her and wobbly legs. And I can start here, on my blog.

I find, as I know you do too, that so often when I dare to speak my real feelings, others understand, relate and feel seen; that there is often a relief in the ‘oh, me too!’.

And if you’ve been around for a while you’ll know that my paintings are a part of a bigger picture of the way my life unfolds. The art is a reflection of the life. So to talk about the art without mentioning the life no longer feels like telling the whole story, or the truth, if you like.

There is much talk on blogs about how much of yourself to put ‘out there’, how honest we are being, how much we edit out, and what is ‘right’. I think a lot of it is connected with fear of vulnerability, which is scary for sure.

What Susannah said struck a chord for me because surely it’s about sharing and learning from each other; we share our lives and connect with others through our feelings about the things that happen to us, which are the things that happen to all of us.

I am interested in creativity, in sharing, in learning and growing, in healing, however that may come.

I share because I need to, and because my experiences are not just my experiences.

I have lost count of the number of times I have stumbled onto someone’s blog on the day that they are talking about just the thing I’m going through, and the relief and comfort there is in knowing you aren’t alone.

Because really, that’s what we all want, to know that we aren’t alone, and if I can offer that in some small way while being truthful to myself, then I couldn’t ask for much more than that.

So this is the direction we’re heading in folks; I’ll share more of the pictures of my life, both metaphorical and literal {hell, I might even share some art at some point!}, with the intention and wish that it is useful or interesting or comforting to someone else, and you are so welcome to come along for the ride and be that someone else if you feel it.

And it won’t all be as serious-face worthy as this one, promise. ๐Ÿ™‚

I think what I’m saying, in my late night clumsy way, is that I need and am ready to shine, scary or not, {gotta get that egg goo off} and in practising what that might look like or mean I hope that it will offer something to you in the process. Time to let go of the deepest fear.


{I had hoped to be more articulate than this, but it just sort of poured out and my pounding head says stop and go to bed already.}