So I think it’s finished. {That’s an outright lie; I want it to be finished. Very badly.}
Anyway as I was saying, I think it’s finished. ‘It’ being my brother’s requested birthday painting.
Parts of this painting are so gorgeous I know I was in flow when they appeared. Other parts…notsomuch. Actual tears have been shed over this one. And it pains me to consider giving a painting that I am not totally in love with. It feels like cheating him of my best effort. But there is also such a thing as overkill, and since I feel I’ve already gone there on the Unmentionable Area, I figure that it’s at a point now where it can be loved despite its perceived flaws. {There’s one of those nice little painting/life analogies.}
As if to compound my frustration, it does not photograph well and therefore does not edit well. The nebulous blob on the right hand side is much darker and less nebulous in real life, and it’s all a bit less painful to look at than it is here. I’m sort of counting on the fact that my bro has not been looking at this every day like I have, and may therefore see more to love in it. The words ‘now is the perfect time’ appeared in my head {as they do sometimes} the other day, and it felt meaningful to both me and him to have that in the painting.
And actually, I have given it my best effort. It’s full of love for my brother, including all the nebulous, harder to love parts.
I really think it’s fantastic and love it…more importantly am sure your bro will x
Your brother is going to love it! ps. Me, I think it’s amazing! A very, very cool piece! xo
Now is the perfect time…to let go of this work and gift it to your brother. I would love to be gifted this work so I can only imagine the joy he is going to feel. You have put so much of yourself into this and yet think there is something “missing” or maybe not “right”. Because you are too much in the centre of it. When you remove “you” from everything that you have already done and see this with your brother, I hope you will see that it is exactly what needed to be done for him in every way. You are a true artist…stressing over the finer points that only the artist herself knows about the work. And believe me, this is amazing.
I think it’s a beautiful painting and I’m sure your bro will love it!
How can he not love it when you have put so much of yourself into it. I think it is GORGEOUS!!!!! and YOU shine through the blue.!!!
Thank you so much everyone; good to get some objective views on the sitch! I really appreciate all your kind words.x
Hi! I’m visiting from Creative Every Day. Love the painting!
Thanks Rachel, and for stopping by! 🙂
But it’s gorgeous! Sometimes we’re our own harshest critics.
Thank you Shayla. Very true 🙂
How could he not love it… it is beautiful and you made it for him. x
Tara, I’m right there with everyone else–this is stunning. I actually gasped a little when it came up on my screen! It’s an absolutely perfect gift.
I think youve done a great job! Infact I’m just angry at the painting for making you cry! I think you should embrace the fact you cared so much about this painting that it’s distorted your perspective so you believe that it’s not good enough for your brother- that’s how much you love him, nothing is good enough, and that’s beautiful in itself.