passion

I’ve been thinking. Uh oh.

About passions ~ mine, specifically, and what I’m going to do with them. And why I haven’t already in some cases. While trolling around the interwebs this week I came across Laura Simms of Create As Folk. Laura “illuminates creative businesses” as she puts it; in fact her whole philosophy is connected to light, which I love.

I have basically devoured her whole site in the last day or so, signed up to the newsletter, made the most of the freebies, the works. And only a tiny bit because I love the colour of her website. :)

I really enjoyed the ebook she has produced in collaboration with other creative business owners, “From Passion to Profit”, which is all about… well, what it sounds like, actually. I particularly liked her section about creative business myths, and Rebecca Leigh‘s section about fear and courage.

The whole thing added fuel to my glowing embers of excitement about the new dream home with the new dream studio and how I might use that to reflect and grow my own passions; creativity, painting, healing, adding value and meaning, and a new one for me, connection and community. I have brainstormed and daydreamed and things are coming together in my mind, although of course nothing can be test run {runned?!} until I’m fully installed there. But it’s all percolating away.

Here’s a painting by new-to-me artist Olga Gouskova entitled ‘Passion’; appropriate in both name and the fact that I love a figurative painting. Oh and painting is one of my passions, not that you’d guess that lately, but it is, actually.

 

move

This puppy has been finished for a week or two, only I didn’t know it was finished til the other night. I just suddenly ‘realised’. Which is cool because I couldn’t work out what more it needed.

These progress shots don’t seem to start very early on, but it gives some idea of how it came together.

What’s also cool is it seems to be one of a building theme, which incorporates colour and figures in a slightly abstract way. I think it’s being heavily influenced by Nia actually; I’m still averaging three classes a week and it seems to impact my whole life. As my teacher says, ‘the wind blows everywhere.’ I think about dancing all the time!

It is hard to describe that internal ‘click’ I feel when I’ve added colour and lines intuitively for a while and then I SEE it, the image the painting wants to be. It’s kind of a buzz actually.

The colours in this one make my heart beat faster! I’m so happy with the figure, which just emerged on her own; I couldn’t have created that sense of a movement captured if I had painstakingly tried. It makes the paintings feel like they’re out of my control, which is both a relief and a bit frustrating at times.

Anyway, I’ve called this one ‘Move’ and it’ll be available in my shop shortly.

PS. Thank you so much for all the lovely supportive comments about the work I produced during my pen and ink class. It was really encouraging and is helping me keep the creative momentum going! xx

untitled

Remember this?

I wrote about it recently here.

Anyway, it’s now finished, and looks like this.

{No matter how hard I try, my photography and editing skills SUCK.}

Here are a few close ups:

It has many layers, this one. The one thing that’s bothering me now is the name. As you may know, usually my paintings tell me what their names are during the process. Occasionally that doesn’t happen and I am left with a nameless painting, and the option of calling it ‘Untitled’ which is a personal no-no for me.

All paintings mean something, and even if the artist doesn’t want to distract the viewer from drawing their own conclusions, calling a painting ‘Untitled’ feels like a cop out to me. It makes me feel sorry for the painting. {I know, I’m such an anthropomorphiser.}

So I’m asking for input please; perhaps you see something in the painting that I don’t, which would help me to name it. I may or may not use the suggestions, but daft as I am, I want this painting to know it has a place in the world. :)

face painting

I have a secret wish to paint faces. Good ones I mean. In my head I know exactly how they would come out, but outside my head they tend not to…

This video has me mesmerised, not just by the end result but by how the painting comes together apparently effortlessly, layer upon layer, light to dark. I love the combination of loose and drippy and tight and perfect. I tried something similar myself after watching it; suffice to say no human being will ever lay eyes on that one!

You can see more of Agnes-Cecile’s beautiful faces here.

the divine feminine

This is my new tiny obsession. Ever since the beginning of this year, and the sudden onset of my need to be in my body, {rather than in my head all the time} and more in touch with myself as a woman {even saying that still weirds me out a bit so clearly there’s more work to do here!}, and then after my friend called me Ocean Goddess just in passing, I can’t seem to stop looking for, and stumbling across, examples of the divine feminine, powerful women and general goddessery in art.

I read a book called The Red Book, by Sera Beak, which I highly recommend for a down to earth approach to bringing spirituality and meaning into your everyday life, and in it she talked about, among many other things, the Virgin Mary and the Hindu goddess Kali.

Apparently the real meaning of the word ‘virgin’, according to many Greek translations and interpretations, is ‘one unto herself’. I like this so much I have it written on the blackboard in my kitchen; in this context I’m learning how to revirginise! The idea of being one unto myself is empowering and suggests much potential for bringing a different part of myself to the fore and offering something to the world from a place of inner knowing and grounded stability.

{Virgin Mary by Fra Filippo Lippi}

Kali was new to me; in many ways the complete antithesis of Mary, she wears accessories of human parts, looks aggressive and bloodthirsty, and defiantly sticks her tongue out at us. For me she is a reminder that woman is both soft and strong. She is the goddess of time and change, and as such is also associated with death, transformation and healing.

{Dancing Kali by Aaron Staengl}

I’ve been looking at images of the empowered feminine and inviting that energy into my painting more since all this began. I’ve talked for a long time about introducing a more figurative element to my work, which for me is more about conveying a feeling or emotion than anatomical correctness! And more and more now my sketchbook is filling up with drawings of women, and my mind’s eye is flooded with concepts for paintings of that divine feminine image that lives inside all women {and maybe men too, I haven’t thought about that}.

It seems that this painting marked a turning point for me:

she seems soft and serene and pure but to me she feels more like a springboard into a side of myself I’m not so acquainted with, and I’m really intrigued by that.

Here is some art in this vein that stirs that empowered inner goddess in me and pushes me to explore this whole idea further {clicking on images will take you either directly to the image or to the artist’s website generally if I couldn’t find the specific image}:

{We Are All Made Of Stars by Leah Piken Kolidas ~ one of my favourite paintings EVER}

{Day Dreams by Erin Ashley}

{Jane Desrosier ~ not sure which painting this is but all of hers inspire me anyway}

{Clarissa Porter ~ Madonna of the Pies}

{Mary Ann Wakeley}

{Rise and Fall by Raina Gentry. Oh how I love this.}

{R.C. Gorman}

{Sarah Wyman ~ Island. SO ‘one unto herself’!}

{Anita Klein ~ The Very Starry Sky}

{Yeye Yemonja ~ Charmaine Minniefield}

This barely scratches the surface of this subject for me. I am constantly learning about what it all means for me personally, and I feel it nudging me to express it in my paintings. I was working on a painting last night that seems to be heading in this new direction, although I have a long way to go. But that’s ok, the journey is the best part, right!

What does the divine feminine mean to you? Do you have any favourite paintings that express that feeling to you? Maybe you’ve done a piece of work about this yourself. I’d love to see; it’s all flames to the creative fire. :)

always remember

I’ve just completed my latest commission, for what you might call my biggest collector. :)

This friend came to me with a piece of writing that a close friend had given her and asked me to turn it into a small painting using ‘peacock colours’.

I was a tiny bit anxious about creating such a small piece of work ~ you know me, I like ‘em LARGE, but in a joyous piece of ‘everything happens for a reason’ it turns out it was exactly what I needed to do to find out I can in fact paint very small detail, about which I was v doubtful.

Yay me. I have just the brush for the job and it was muy satisfying.

The peacock feather was actually a happy accident of sorts. I had measured out all the text really carefully in terms of placement and size, but somehow once I stuck it down it took up much less space than I’d thought!  I’m really pleased about that now as the feather is a nice addition I think.

I used my fave ‘printing onto tissue paper’ technique to do the writing; originally I was going to do some freehand writing but it seemed better this way in the end.

Between you and me, the balance still feels a bit off, and this photo is NOT good, but still. It was created with much love and carefulness.

I need to go and paint something large and messy now. Laters. xx

blessed

It was great to hear about your ‘words for the year’, thank you to everyone who shared theirs ~ so fascinating what people choose and their motivations behind their choices. I wish for all of us many miracles connected {and unconnected!} with our themes. I know there will be plenty. :) In fact I’d go so far as to say this post is about my first one; not bad for the second day of the year!

So ‘Blessed’ is kind of a working title for this painting, because of my phobia of calling paintings ‘untitled’. An actual phobia. The process photos are crap because I used my phone. Sorries.

It came from a sketch I did while on the beach a couple of months ago and has mostly come together by itself, with a bare minimum of Ugly Phase!

You know why? Cause when I felt myself coming up against the usual wall of ‘shitwhatdoidonow’, I remembered my word. That’s it. Almost worryingly easy! {But not worrying of course because of the whole trusting thing.}

So I just kept trusting and painting, with a little ‘visual inspiration’ from Klimt and Jane Desrosier

…and with essential trips to the beach and much encouragement from D in between {D being the Artist Friend who hasn’t got a website yet but when he does I’ll let you know}.

And boom! Done. Still terrible light but you get the idea.

rise : a lotus painting

I started a painting ages ago which was supposed to be, well actually, I’ve got no flipping idea what it was supposed to be. It was one of those testing times when the genius idea in your head is not what appears on the canvas. In the end I gave up and it languished for many moons on the floor of my studio.

Then recently, as is my wont, I decided to gesso over the whole thing and start again. Here it is, pre-gesso {not pretty}:

Gesso plus new colours at random:

The more time passes the more I’m learning about my own process. It will always be evolving of course but certain threads remain constant.

I notice that when doing certain things I am smiling or dancing while I’m painting ~ these must be ‘my’ things I guess! When I’ve tapped into creative source and it’s just flowing through me. I love this photo – so scrummy:

Shapes repeat themselves, as do colour choices. Often there is collage, although not on this one. I also get a really strong urge to draw and write on them.

I went into one of my painting trances after first consciously deciding to just dive in and pick colours, brushes and other tools as the feeling arose, not to question anything but just to keep moving and adding and wiping and smooshing.

There was already lots of great texture from the painting beneath it. I wrote ‘rise’ because I was thinking about the lotus flower and how it grows from the mud but looks so beautiful and clean. It represents purity in Buddhism.

Tara’s Genius Tip Of The Day: use chalk to draw in ideas before committing to them with paint. It shows you what something will look like and is really easy to rub off with a cloth. I painted over my chalk lines {more or less} and then rubbed away the chalk when I felt happy with it. I’m sure I didn’t invent this but I did make it up for myself, and it’s the best way I’ve found to try out composition and subject ideas that I need to see ‘down’ before I know if they work.

I’ve been wanting to paint a lotus for ages, but all my efforts looked like artichokes. There is a hint of artichoke here but I’m happy with it all the same.

So I was pleased with the composition and the areas of dark and light, but it didn’t feel quite pulled together enough. I asked the painting what it needed {yes, really} and it said ‘more white’, so I went back in with some white lines and circles, which I then went over again with pencil.

This painting took several weeks and also just a few hours, paradoxically. I’m really pleased with it! It’s in the shop now, and will live in my healing room until it finds a new home.

nameless

Well, after much to-ing and fro-ing, I finished it last night. For someone who has little patience for detail I found painting the dots strangely satsifying.

Once I’d started it was actually kind of hard to stop.

Here we are part of the way through.

Usually I find the title of a painting comes to me while I’m painting it; not so this one as it began life in my head as one thing {a woman in a huge dress} and then people started saying ‘is it a peacock?’ and ‘it looks like a veil’. I love that it could be many things but it makes naming it more difficult, and I flat out refuse to ‘name’ a painting ‘Untitled’. Just no.

{as yet untitled}

{mixed media on canvas}

{51 x 51 x 3.5cm}

For sale as soon as it has a title! {Otherwise I can’t make page for it.}

If you feel inspired by a name for this little number I would love to hear it! I’m thinking something ambiguous which allows the viewer to decide for themselves what they are looking at. What are the first things it makes you feel or think? Hit me with it people.

tumble

This one happened really fast. Possibly more to do but the energy has gone so we’ll see. These colours make me sing inside {and a little bit outside too}. And I have to say, the photograph does not do it justice.

{Tumble}

{Acrylics, oil pastel and pencil on canvas}

{30 x 61 x 3cm}

Available for sale here.