prajna : an elephant painting

I don’t often say this about my own work, but I’ve just finished a painting I think is bloody brilliant.

If you paint you’ll know that sometimes there is flow and sometimes there isn’t, but when there is, when a painting just comes together almost on its own, the adrenaline and excitement can make hours pass in moments and when you look at what you and creative source produced together, you literally want to jump up and down and run about squealing like a five year old.

I wish it was always like that.

The process was smooth, a liquid combination of an idea seed and a series of actions. With this song by Jonatha Brooke on a loop:

I started with a white canvas, knowing only that I wanted to make a textural painting with a white base, and that I wanted to leave the edges of the canvas bare.

I started with a few squeezes of Quinacridone Red straight onto the canvas, which I smooshed around with my fingers til I had a rough square.

Elephant in progress: red paint and collage

While it was still wet I stuck on some tissue and a couple of stamps, on a whim.

When it was dry I went in with thick globs of gesso and a palette knife, covering all the red but allowing some to show through.

Elephant in progress: gesso

Then some smears of crackle paste, which turned out to be rather old and lumpy, but it just added to the texture.

Elephant in progress: crackle paste

I let that dry overnight and ended up leaving it for a couple of days while I loosely held the painting in the back of my mind to see what would come next.

I knew I wanted a central image, something clean and simple, and for a while I thought it would be a figure, much like the one from my painting ‘Move’, but after rifling through various reference images and sketching a few shapes in pencil onto the painting, I could tell that wasn’t the way to go.

So I flicked through some old magazines I keep just for reference and cutting up, and I almost immediately found a photo of a herd of elephants. I didn’t even think about it, just started drawing.

Elephant in progress: pencil sketch and blue

I knew I definitely wanted a specific shade of blue around the elephant, so I painted in some Cerulean Blue Deep mixed with Titanium White around the initial sketch, and then starting to block in the darks and lights with Payne’s Grey and Titanium White.

Elephant in progress: blocking in lights and darks

It was interesting how I kept having to course correct; I’d find myself trying to get all the lines and lighting exactly right, and then remember that I was more interested in feel than accuracy. It kept it looser.

Elephant in progress: Stabilo all surface pencil outline

I went over the initial pencil lines with a black Stabilo all surface pencil, which I blended with a damp cotton bud. I wanted an outline but I wanted it soft and slightly broken.

Elephant in progress: more shading

I just kept going back and forth with the blocks of shading until I was happy.

Elephant in progress: darker blue around the elephant

Darkened some of the darks, and added a few chalk highlights which pick up the texture, and a layer of slightly darker blue directly around the elephant.

Elephant in progress: final touch ups

I love the texture of this painting, and the way the initial red just peeks through here and there, giving it some depth and background. And the way she is walking out of the painting towards you. I’ve called her Prajna, which means wisdom in Sanskrit I believe. {If I’m wrong about this, please let me know!}

SAMSUNG

I’ve hung her in the living room; she could easily be finished but part of me wants to see if there’s anything to add to really make her my own, something a little quirky. I’ve got a feeling to add some shimmer somewhere. Or perhaps the lack of circles is throwing me!

elephant hanging

Elephant by Tara Leaver

Elephant by Tara Leaver

how to know when a painting is finished

I want to say upfront that I am not the guru of how to know when a painting is finished. Hell no. As much as I hope that this post will be useful and/or interesting to you, it’s an exploration for me too. There is a special corner of my studio {ok, two} reserved specifically for The Unfinished Ones, and it hasn’t diminished recently.

I’ve included some of my paintings to illustrate different ways that a painting can tell you it’s finished.

Angels Are Everywhere

Angels are Everywhere.
Sometimes paintings don’t need much before they’re finished. In fact, part of their finishedness is in looking kind of unfinished.

I watched the documentary ‘Gerhard Richter Painting’ recently. I found a lot of it kind of dry, but watching him paint was pretty interesting. After the first layer he leaves the paintings for an hour, a day, or longer before knowing if they’re finished or what more they need. You can see him in the film contemplating the paintings.

His assistants joke {at least I think they were joking ~ they were deadpan throughout so it was hard to tell and I don’t speak German so I didn’t always understand the nuances} that they can never be sure if a painting is finished; Richter may come back and do more, he may not. They have to wait and see. But the thing that struck me was when one of the assistants said, “After a while you just know”. This is exactly my process, only I hadn’t really articulated it or accepted it as a possible means of discovering whether a painting is finished. Of course someone else describing your method is always a great validation. :)

Here’s one that exactly illustrates that phrase:

What Was Invisible Begins To Be Revealed

What Was Invisible Begins To Be Revealed.
For ages I thought it wasn’t finished, and then suddenly I realised it was.

Carrie Schmitt, who paints beautiful flowers, carries her paintings around the house with her while she ponders what they may or may not need to be complete. I know of several artists who keep adding things until something just clicks inside them, and they feel it is finished.  Creating being such an emotional, right brain, intuitive visceral process, this makes total sense to me. Until you’re standing in front of a piece not getting any vibes. For some it’s a more practical case of ‘there’s nothing more I can add here’.

Grace

Grace.
One of the many joys of mixed media painting is that you can just add stuff and cover it over til you’re happy.

In the painting above the mixed media-ness of the painting means potentially you could go on adding things forever. I think this can be true of abstract work too. I find that just telling people a painting is finished is often like drawing a line under it. Even if I wasn’t really sure myself, no one has ever questioned me on it, and just the act of saying it’s complete is enough for it to become true.

Move

Move.
This is a good example of a painting that pretty much painted itself and knew exactly when it was finished. I do kind of wish they were all like that but would we learn without being pushed by challenges?

It can be quite easy to get caught up in judgement about how long you’ve spent on a painting, or how easily it came together. I don’t know about you but I can get in a pickle if I start going down the road of ‘too quick and too easy means it’s not a good/finished/valid painting’. Nonsense of course. The painting above, possibly my favourite ever to date, was the perfect dance of spirit, brush, paint and canvas that we all dream of. It didn’t take weeks, I didn’t agonise over it, I was simply the vessel for it to come through, inspired by a Nia class. Sometimes it really is that simple.

Peacock

Peacock.
One good way to know when a painting is finished is to make it OF something. Then when you’ve finished painting whatever the object is, it’s done. Boom.

I don’t often paint ‘things’, as in recognizable single subjects. This peacock came about pretty quickly though, and I knew it was done because all the elements were there and there was nothing more to do! Sometimes it’s that simple too.

One of the joys of art for me is that it’s not like maths; there’s no right or wrong, or final answer. There are probably as many different ways to know if paintings are finished as there are artists to paint them.

Holding Space before and after

Holding Space.
A work in progress that sat for MONTHS unfinished and too confusing for me to even look at. Then one day, it turned into the painting on the right. Which I really love.

If you Google the topic, there are plenty of opinions out there. In fact the sheer number of words written about it shows just how much it is an issue for many artists.

If I was to to break it down, I’d say the following are some good ways that I’ve found useful to get to the point where you ‘just know’:

~ Turn the painting upside down or hold it up to a mirror. That’ll show you pretty quickly where any imbalances are.

~ Hang it in the living room so you see it every day in passing, or can contemplate it from time to time.

~ Have a conversation with it. Seriously. Ask it what it needs, what’s missing. Sometimes I feel a painting looks done but doesn’t feel like it’s saying anything. It feels a bit flat. If it wants to say something, how will you know if you don’t ask? It’s just a conversation with yourself, really.

~ If it feels unfinished but you don’t know what it needs, consider the possibility that it is actually finished.

~ Does the eye travel easily over and around the painting? Are any areas jarring, or less comfortable to look at? Do they need integrating?

~ Be patient. My least favourite, but probably the most effective. Time will always bring things to fruition.

Do you paint? How do YOU gauge when a painting is finished? I’m always interested in new approaches so please share your wisdom!

Love It: Abby Kasonik

I found Abby Kasonik‘s work on Pinterest {I’m hanging out there a lot at the moment, what with the impending move and thus decoration ideas, the need for distraction and the wealth of inspiring art over there} and knew it was time for a long overdue ‘Love It’.

Abby lives in Virginia and has a degree in sculpture and many exhibitions under her belt.

Scrolling through her work on her website shows a transition from darker, sparser paintings, to soft and muted blues. They are mostly abstract, studies in colour, although there are sometimes suggestions of sky or landscapes.

Perhaps it’s the rain cascading down outside my window as I type this that made these works catch my eye, or my deep love of the sea, or the beautiful blues of her paintings, but I find them so soothing. I love the addition of the moon in the painting below.

And how Abby has captured the splash of raindrops on the sea’s surface in this one.

Her website doesn’t give much away about her, but she has a blog, and her home has been featured here {to DIE for}. It was actually seeing photos of her beautiful home on Pinterest that introduced me to her work. With light like and space like that to work in it’s no wonder her paintings changed from darker browns to soft and lighter blues.

I am inspired to play with drips now. Not to mention using plenty of white and light in my new home.

passion

I’ve been thinking. Uh oh.

About passions ~ mine, specifically, and what I’m going to do with them. And why I haven’t already in some cases. While trolling around the interwebs this week I came across Laura Simms of Create As Folk. Laura “illuminates creative businesses” as she puts it; in fact her whole philosophy is connected to light, which I love.

I have basically devoured her whole site in the last day or so, signed up to the newsletter, made the most of the freebies, the works. And only a tiny bit because I love the colour of her website. :)

I really enjoyed the ebook she has produced in collaboration with other creative business owners, “From Passion to Profit”, which is all about… well, what it sounds like, actually. I particularly liked her section about creative business myths, and Rebecca Leigh‘s section about fear and courage.

The whole thing added fuel to my glowing embers of excitement about the new dream home with the new dream studio and how I might use that to reflect and grow my own passions; creativity, painting, healing, adding value and meaning, and a new one for me, connection and community. I have brainstormed and daydreamed and things are coming together in my mind, although of course nothing can be test run {runned?!} until I’m fully installed there. But it’s all percolating away.

Here’s a painting by new-to-me artist Olga Gouskova entitled ‘Passion’; appropriate in both name and the fact that I love a figurative painting. Oh and painting is one of my passions, not that you’d guess that lately, but it is, actually.

 

untitled

Remember this?

I wrote about it recently here.

Anyway, it’s now finished, and looks like this.

{No matter how hard I try, my photography and editing skills SUCK.}

Here are a few close ups:

It has many layers, this one. The one thing that’s bothering me now is the name. As you may know, usually my paintings tell me what their names are during the process. Occasionally that doesn’t happen and I am left with a nameless painting, and the option of calling it ‘Untitled’ which is a personal no-no for me.

All paintings mean something, and even if the artist doesn’t want to distract the viewer from drawing their own conclusions, calling a painting ‘Untitled’ feels like a cop out to me. It makes me feel sorry for the painting. {I know, I’m such an anthropomorphiser.}

So I’m asking for input please; perhaps you see something in the painting that I don’t, which would help me to name it. I may or may not use the suggestions, but daft as I am, I want this painting to know it has a place in the world. :)

everything is connected

All these photos show art that is connected to me in a different way, like threads woven together to form part of a whole although seemingly having nothing to do with each other.

This is a quickie I did in my sketchbook, pretty much copied from a painting by Erin Ashley, whose work I love. So it is mine but not mine.

This is the book by Flora Bowley that I pre-ordered months ago and forgot about until it arrived through my letterbox this morning. I bought it as a direct result of being taught by her at a retreat last year, and having been fortunate enough to buy one of her paintings. Another thread.

This beautiful chalk masterpiece was produced today by D while I was with a client, built around the words and tiny drawing I had already done {you can just see it!}. You could call it D’s and my first collaborative work! Another thread.

‘Always wear your invisible crown’ is something I saw on Pinterest, and it has been floating around in my head ever since. SO useful when  you’re feeling less than queenlike.

My own crown regularly slips sideways or falls off altogether, but remembering these words always helps me find it really quickly. :)

Love It: Maria Pace Wynters

If you’re a regular round here you’ll already know I love Canada based artist Maria Pace-Wynters‘ vibrant, beautiful paintings. I was recently so inspired by her style of portraiture that I was moved to create a painting of my own in a similar vein.

Like many of us, she has been making art since childhood, and also perhaps like many of us found that growing up led her away from the natural spontenaity and non judgement of childhood creating, that ‘life’ just sort of took over. Thankfully she didn’t let it stop her! She includes this quote on both her website and Etsy shop profile as a great reminder:

Every child is an artist. The problem is how to remain an artist once he grows up.
Pablo Picasso

Apart from the glorious colours, I really admire how she has perfected the balance between loose lines and colour patches, and detailed focused areas.

Also her heavenly, voluptuous flowers and foliage, particularly poppies. There is something so luxurious and decadent about her paintings.

As a mother her daughters are clearly a source of inspiration to her ~ many of her paintings feature impish young faces. The circus is also a common theme.

She has plenty of options available in her Etsy shop, from originals to postcards and art print blocks.

outdoor studio sunday

Hi guys. Sup.

I’ve been very lax on the art front the last few days. Actually that’s not true. It just LOOKED like it because it’s all been going on inside. Some of it came out today though, yay!

D and I went down to the seafront and set up camp on the promenade. On a sunny Sunday there’s no shortage of passers by, aka potential purchasers of art. For D anyway, I was just sketchbooking it today. D set up a little gallery, we appropriated a bench, and Friday… was also there.

Here he is at work.

Anyway, back to me. :) I was mostly just colouring in today. Actually this one I coloured in a few days ago, with water soluble pencils. The only thing I like about it is the composition, and that is borrowed.

Moving swiftly on. I do love this one, both drawn and coloured today over some collage and gesso I did last night. I’d like to add more in the space above the figure, but it wasn’t forthcoming. I’m very keen on the idea of symbolism and wanted to put in images relevant to my thought processes recently. Still drawing a blank. Literally. ;) I’m happy with the shapes though. This goddess painting that still hasn’t emerged is slowly taking shape in my head and there will definitely be some combination of figure and abstraction.

I really like this one too. Again with the figurative abstraction.

This one was totally new on the page today, over some coloured inks I’d been using up a while back. I find her slightly haughty and cold, but then I had been saying to myself I want to move away from the innocent little princess faces I’ve done so often.

And here is Frides, who had to be put on a lead after running away to the cafe and not coming back. Naughty.

EDIT: Every post lately I’ve been wanting to tell you {and forgetting} about my new Picnik Substitute Discovery – PicMonkey. For those of you who are properly bummed out about the imminent disappearance of Picnik, Picmonkey is the solution. Mainly because it appears to be Picnik with a different name. Seriously check it out, all your favourite editing tools and effects are there. YAY!

unfinished symphony

Not so much a symphony really as a bunch of canvases in varying states of unfinishedness, because lately I am having no trouble starting a painting, but getting it to a point where I know it’s complete is a whole nother story. There is also the fact that there seem to be three or four different artists living inside me and I have no control over which one is going to produce a painting at any given time.

Case in point; I lined up several of my paintings that include the sea {above} to see what was going on. As I suspected, they pretty much all look like they’ve been done by different people. Also at least three of them are not finished but I simply do not know what they need. I don’t know how much I can really ‘control’ that, but I’m getting very tired of half painted canvases hanging around for months on end. Mind you, once they are finished they tend to just sit there anyway, but then I’m not really focusing on exhibiting them at the moment so I can hardly complain about that!

I’m not saying I’m not happy with these paintings; I love at least parts of all of them. I just can’t help longing for some consistency, and really no amount of being reassured that diversity is good, sameness gets boring etc etc will convince me because I feel unstable working like this. I know an artist’s work develops and changes over time, and I can see evidence of that in my own work of course, but still after three years to be producing such inconsistent work! Gah. It bugs me.

And the whole not finishing paintings thing. It’s not restricted to paintings ~ projects, books, articles, all sorts of things are being started and not finished round here lately. No f0cus!

Ah well. This wasn’t supposed to be a big whinge. I am experiencing some frustration but I continue to paint and to love doing it, so maybe I just need to remember my word of the year and keeping walking through. In the meantime I’ll endeavour to finish some paintings so I can post all those drafts I’ve got waiting to publish!

read: A Woman’s Worth by Marianne Williamson. Short and brilliant.
hear:
All At Sea by Jamie Cullum, a rediscovery of a song I always loved.
taste: homemade muesli
touch:
anything soft will do nicely
think:
wow, my biggest problem at the moment is not being able to finish a painting; my hard work is paying off and I have much gratitude. Also talking it through with you has made me feel much better about it.
feel
: happy, excited anticipation

{via Bohemian Twilight}

the divine feminine

This is my new tiny obsession. Ever since the beginning of this year, and the sudden onset of my need to be in my body, {rather than in my head all the time} and more in touch with myself as a woman {even saying that still weirds me out a bit so clearly there’s more work to do here!}, and then after my friend called me Ocean Goddess just in passing, I can’t seem to stop looking for, and stumbling across, examples of the divine feminine, powerful women and general goddessery in art.

I read a book called The Red Book, by Sera Beak, which I highly recommend for a down to earth approach to bringing spirituality and meaning into your everyday life, and in it she talked about, among many other things, the Virgin Mary and the Hindu goddess Kali.

Apparently the real meaning of the word ‘virgin’, according to many Greek translations and interpretations, is ‘one unto herself’. I like this so much I have it written on the blackboard in my kitchen; in this context I’m learning how to revirginise! The idea of being one unto myself is empowering and suggests much potential for bringing a different part of myself to the fore and offering something to the world from a place of inner knowing and grounded stability.

{Virgin Mary by Fra Filippo Lippi}

Kali was new to me; in many ways the complete antithesis of Mary, she wears accessories of human parts, looks aggressive and bloodthirsty, and defiantly sticks her tongue out at us. For me she is a reminder that woman is both soft and strong. She is the goddess of time and change, and as such is also associated with death, transformation and healing.

{Dancing Kali by Aaron Staengl}

I’ve been looking at images of the empowered feminine and inviting that energy into my painting more since all this began. I’ve talked for a long time about introducing a more figurative element to my work, which for me is more about conveying a feeling or emotion than anatomical correctness! And more and more now my sketchbook is filling up with drawings of women, and my mind’s eye is flooded with concepts for paintings of that divine feminine image that lives inside all women {and maybe men too, I haven’t thought about that}.

It seems that this painting marked a turning point for me:

she seems soft and serene and pure but to me she feels more like a springboard into a side of myself I’m not so acquainted with, and I’m really intrigued by that.

Here is some art in this vein that stirs that empowered inner goddess in me and pushes me to explore this whole idea further {clicking on images will take you either directly to the image or to the artist’s website generally if I couldn’t find the specific image}:

{We Are All Made Of Stars by Leah Piken Kolidas ~ one of my favourite paintings EVER}

{Day Dreams by Erin Ashley}

{Jane Desrosier ~ not sure which painting this is but all of hers inspire me anyway}

{Clarissa Porter ~ Madonna of the Pies}

{Mary Ann Wakeley}

{Rise and Fall by Raina Gentry. Oh how I love this.}

{R.C. Gorman}

{Sarah Wyman ~ Island. SO ‘one unto herself’!}

{Anita Klein ~ The Very Starry Sky}

{Yeye Yemonja ~ Charmaine Minniefield}

This barely scratches the surface of this subject for me. I am constantly learning about what it all means for me personally, and I feel it nudging me to express it in my paintings. I was working on a painting last night that seems to be heading in this new direction, although I have a long way to go. But that’s ok, the journey is the best part, right!

What does the divine feminine mean to you? Do you have any favourite paintings that express that feeling to you? Maybe you’ve done a piece of work about this yourself. I’d love to see; it’s all flames to the creative fire. :)